on having big dreams…
40 hours of work, 10 hours of classes, 8 hours of auditions. not including the commute. you can imagine how exhausted i am to have days where i wake up at 5 and sleep at 12.
i question my dreams and how much they’re worth. my dream to work at a tech company is just as powerful as acting at this point, except i’ll have a retirement and health plan to ensure some safety.
i knew that this journey would be difficult, but it’s not the tasks at hand that are hard. it’s keeping up this lifestyle of losing money on classes and driving and auditions. you put in a lot before you get a decent return. the lucky ones get an early break, but those who keep at this for years, i respect them for their mental strength.
really, i don’t mind rejection, and education is important me to when learning a tool like acting. but what am i doing this for?
i guess that’s a question i have to ask myself, as most of us do about why we do things in life in general. another set of incoherent ramblings…
