ramblings

Graduate, Actor, Lost Kid.
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on having big dreams…

40 hours of work, 10 hours of classes, 8 hours of auditions. not including the commute. you can imagine how exhausted i am to have days where i wake up at 5 and sleep at 12.

i question my dreams and how much they’re worth. my dream to work at a tech company is just as powerful as acting at this point, except i’ll have a retirement and health plan to ensure some safety.

i knew that this journey would be difficult, but it’s not the tasks at hand that are hard. it’s keeping up this lifestyle of losing money on classes and driving and auditions. you put in a lot before you get a decent return. the lucky ones get an early break, but those who keep at this for years, i respect them for their mental strength.

really, i don’t mind rejection, and education is important me to when learning a tool like acting. but what am i doing this for?

i guess that’s a question i have to ask myself, as most of us do about why we do things in life in general. another set of incoherent ramblings…

currently 8pm, and i’m still enjoying a freshly brewed cup of coffee. damn you coffee beans with your awesome taste and coffee cups with you cute polka dots and spoon handle!

currently 8pm, and i’m still enjoying a freshly brewed cup of coffee. damn you coffee beans with your awesome taste and coffee cups with you cute polka dots and spoon handle!

(Source: thepursuitaesthetic)

2am traffic in la. typical… (Taken with instagram) View high resolution

2am traffic in la. typical… (Taken with instagram)

underwhelming night market (Taken with instagram) View high resolution

underwhelming night market (Taken with instagram)

red robin with the boyf (Taken with instagram) View high resolution

red robin with the boyf (Taken with instagram)

new crossfit shoes :) (Taken with instagram) View high resolution

new crossfit shoes :) (Taken with instagram)

officially grandma jennie

so the past week has been pretty ridiculous. i started my first salary-to-be job (damn you temp time!), went to vegas, started a new acting class. you know how it goes, when it rains, it pours.

it feels really nice to lead a normal life again. auditions, sending out headshots, going to workshops non-stop, that’s all fun when you go when you want, but it was getting so hectic. and when you don’t go anywhere after all that effort, it feels super shitty. being able to pick and choose what i do instead of having it choose me is such an empowering feeling. i had forgotten how to be beast jennie, and she is now resurfacing :)

so now i have a new career with a manager title, ridiculously challenging tasks (check out golden state crossfit), AND the ability to do acting as a passion, not a job. just worked 6am to 2pm, now off to an audition and a practice session for a scene! blessed, truly blessed. yes, i have to sleep at 11pm to make sure i wake up for work on time, but really, what’s new? gma jennie ftw!

thank you onevietnam, craigslist, AiR, my family, my boyf! it’s amazing to wake up not wanting to go to work (let’s be real), complaining about the people you work with, and seeing potential and direction in the future. 

let’s do this!!! OH, and i just got instagram. today’s the shit man!

are you kidding? why the hell is this kid at berkeley? i’m going to be really disappointed if he’s elected, bears.

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