making choices
when i was younger, i had my whole life planned in front of me. in the second grade, i was going to be a scientist. in the fifth grade i was going to be a teacher. in the seventh grade i was going to be a supermodel. as high school and college progressed, i didn’t have quite a finite plan, but i knew my class schedule and when work would fit in between it.
school’s over. as a studious asian girl, it took me a while to find my bearings in the world. no more school, no finite job, no clear plan for the future… that pretty much describes the last 6 months.
however, i feel so damn lucky. got a call a month ago to see if i was interested in working at a sales company. is the work inconsistent and a lot of hard work? yes indeedy. but somehow, the universe has set a path for me to build a professional career as well as an artistic career. who gets to be their own boss at almost-23, calling all the shots and taking all the chances? while pursuing my friggen dreams?
what a lucky life i’m living, to get to make choices. i didn’t see the opportunities when i was younger since my path was so clear and the step in front of me was brightly lit. as i stepped further, the path grew foggier until i really didn’t know what i was doing. a flicker here, a light bulb there, a florescent sign there… eventually everything came together.
although i’ve been super stressed and i have mad acne face, i’m so happy to be sitting at starbucks with my tax-exempt coffee next to oprah’s office on miracle mile on this bright sunny day reading over scripts. what a lucky girl i am to be living in america, to have my friends and family, and to have the education and opportunities in my life.
extremely blessed at the moment. not sure what i did to deserve this, but i’ll be sure to send the universe positive vibes from now on.
BOOMTOWN! look it up son!
