ramblings

making choices

Wed, 25 Jan 2012 16:04:44 -0800

when i was younger, i had my whole life planned in front of me. in the second grade, i was going to be a scientist. in the fifth grade i was going to be a teacher. in the seventh grade i was going to be a supermodel. as high school and college progressed, i didn’t have quite a finite plan, but i knew my class schedule and when work would fit in between it.

school’s over. as a studious asian girl, it took me a while to find my bearings in the world. no more school, no finite job, no clear plan for the future… that pretty much describes the last 6 months.

however, i feel so damn lucky. got a call a month ago to see if i was interested in working at a sales company. is the work inconsistent and a lot of hard work? yes indeedy. but somehow, the universe has set a path for me to build a professional career as well as an artistic career. who gets to be their own boss at almost-23, calling all the shots and taking all the chances? while pursuing my friggen dreams?

what a lucky life i’m living, to get to make choices. i didn’t see the opportunities when i was younger since my path was so clear and the step in front of me was brightly lit. as i stepped further, the path grew foggier until i really didn’t know what i was doing. a flicker here, a light bulb there, a florescent sign there… eventually everything came together.

although i’ve been super stressed and i have mad acne face, i’m so happy to be sitting at starbucks with my tax-exempt coffee next to oprah’s office on miracle mile on this bright sunny day reading over scripts. what a lucky girl i am to be living in america, to have my friends and family, and to have the education and opportunities in my life.

extremely blessed at the moment. not sure what i did to deserve this, but i’ll be sure to send the universe positive vibes from now on.

BOOMTOWN! look it up son!

new year, new job, new perspective

Mon, 23 Jan 2012 13:02:19 -0800

i am not a sales person. i am working a sales job. like acting, i have invested the last month to train and master this business. without pay.

i guess there’s something about being my own boss that just won’t go away. i see that last six months as an investment for the next ten years of my life.

so, here’s to a great year of the dragon! this year will be about upgrading from college student to professional, and to understanding the true lengths of daring to suck, both in acting and in sales.

watch out. i’m going to kick 2012’s ass. while being a big bitch that complains a whole lot about work. but still kicking ass.

happy dragon days! and much love to the SD kids on American Idol! so proud :)

neaato: cool background design gujacq: Happy Chinese New Year!...

Mon, 23 Jan 2012 12:03:14 -0800

neaato:

cool background design

gujacq:

Happy Chinese New Year! Year of the Dragon: Here’s the version one of my NY greeting.

got my oil changed. what's so fun about that you ask?

Thu, 05 Jan 2012 18:19:26 -0800

well if you’re like me, you’ve been going to ghetto ass vietnamese mechanics for your entire life.

but not today. because i went to midas.

i was greeted in english. they were wearing uniforms. i signed paperwork. it was amazing. lamely, this is probably the biggest hollywood upgrade for me. documentation? done. status checkup on my car? yup. legit receipt with credit cardage? you betcha.

until i’m rolling big with the fancy things, getting my oil changed at midas will make me feel like a baller.

and happy 2012 everyone! i have a feeling it’ll be a good one.

new truths i will adapt for 2012

Sun, 25 Dec 2011 20:01:13 -0800

minimalism
good health
effective life habits
amazing work practices
allowing my heart to grow bigger
more color and brightness

i think that list should suffice. simplicity, health, happiness, love… all the things i will improve upon next year!

happy holidays!

weird shit happens on hollyhood

Tue, 29 Nov 2011 21:05:05 -0800

a) earlier today i posted a breakdown that was for a sexual asian girl who worked at a record label and was a stripper on the side. what the fuck right? stereotypes for the lose. here’s another goody in lieu of the holidays.

pretty awesome right? what exemplifies the meaning of christmas more than girls in skimpy clothing making out with each other while santa has a boner? apologies for my vulgar language, but i’m aghast that such a thing is thought of.

b) on a different note, today i was asked to speak in vietnamese which was fucking delightful. no, it wasn’t fob viet so that i would have a terrible caricature accent. i went on a print casting, and the photographer who was south east asian but not vietnamese spoke vietnamese with me. it’s a great way to use my beautiful language, and to top it off, i def got booked.

alright, off my soapbox and back to working on nabbing an agent!

‘working’

Mon, 28 Nov 2011 16:22:22 -0800

‘working’

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Mon, 28 Nov 2011 15:48:00 -0800

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Sun, 27 Nov 2011 23:47:10 -0800

when things feel stagnant

Sat, 26 Nov 2011 22:59:13 -0800

my life feels consumed with materialism and inefficiency. i have all these things around me that are supposed to make my happy, pretty, warm, etc. and yet, with all these things that are supposed to bring happiness and possibly productivity/creation, i lack all of that.

i’m not writing songs or stories. i’m not drawing or painting. i’m not learning constantly anymore. existence feels still.

i’m not gonna wait for the new year for my resolutions. i have guitars (yes plural), a new keyboard, a closetful of clothes, countless resources to learn and be engaged. and i’m going to do that. i’m not striving for happiness in particular, but i wouldn’t be surprised if i stumbled upon it.

gotta keep the wheels churning. consistency and stillness is never good for me.

such a bitch in high school

Thu, 24 Nov 2011 17:55:14 -0800

such a bitch in high school

on the holidays...

Thu, 24 Nov 2011 16:15:32 -0800

this year marks a new part of my life, and i’m extremely thankful for all the fortune i’ve had this year.

wonderful mother who keeps me in check. who else is going to tell you your makeup is whack or that your clothes make you look fatter than you are?
three brothers who sometimes think they’re my father figure and tell me smart things about life or do dumb things so i can learn from them
a boyfriend who believes in second chances
a network of friends who know i’m crazy but deal with it
a career path that is unpredictable but truly enjoyable in a time when asian artists are not common and jobs for econ majors do not exist
essentials, like food and clean water
materialistic awesome things such as a bed, computer, phone, and other advances that allow me to be comfortable and productive
an education and a future, a privilege that many do not experience and thankfully i have.
the fact that i can make choices

i dont want to be another zombie american drone that loves materialistic consumption and a shallow relationship with family. i shall work on that! :)

happy thanksgiving, and enjoy your turkeys! tell me how your naps go. my family will be having banh trang tonight!

wil, thank you for not giving a fuck. happy thanksgiving...

Thu, 24 Nov 2011 15:49:42 -0800

wil, thank you for not giving a fuck. happy thanksgiving everyone!

jayqizzle:

nicolettesong:

HAHAHAAHAHAHAH WIL TORRES, YOU MAKE MY LIFE. AND HAROLD GALVEZ, YOU COMPLETE ME FOR MAKING THIS.

Hahahha, Kuya Wil! This photo is priceless! Good job, Harold!!

"we can be the vietnamese mary kate and ashley we aren’t twins but to non asians we’ll..."

Thu, 17 Nov 2011 20:32:21 -0800

“we can be the vietnamese mary kate and ashley
we aren’t twins
but to non asians
we’ll look alike anyways”

- tofurkle, on being asian and awesome

Undeserved present to myself… Happy, er, November!

Mon, 07 Nov 2011 07:50:07 -0800

Undeserved present to myself… Happy, er, November!

Asian Americans most bullied in US schools: study

Tue, 01 Nov 2011 10:41:06 -0700

Asian Americans most bullied in US schools: study:

Asian Americans endure far more bullying at US schools than members of other ethnic groups, with teenagers of the community three times as likely to face taunts on the Internet, new data shows…

The research, to be released on Saturday, found that 54 percent of Asian American teenagers said they were bullied in the classroom…

Some 62 percent of Asian Americans reported online harassment once or twice a month, compared with 18.1 percent of whites. The researcher said more study was needed on why the problem is so severe among Asian Americans…

99 cent store panties! interesting but realistic demographic.

Mon, 03 Oct 2011 21:06:05 -0700

99 cent store panties! interesting but realistic demographic.

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Mon, 03 Oct 2011 17:43:13 -0700

new food blog yo!

Sun, 25 Sep 2011 12:01:57 -0700

new food blog yo!

thats some good shit. i call it a hoax.

Sun, 25 Sep 2011 00:19:21 -0700

thats some good shit. i call it a hoax.